Ow my head

I've woken up with a complete evil of a headache this morning.  Pitfalls of being me.  I've always been awful at keeping up with hydration, for years I've been lasting on one glass of water a day which is 1/8th of the amount you're meant to drink.  Even when I was in labour, they had to hook me up to two or three drips to get me hydrated again.  Must get better!  I've mentioned this before but I think there are some days when things go right and some days when things just go so very wrong.  I'm having a bit of a wrong day today.


We went to get Katie weighed yesterday and turns out she's dropped a centile - basically she's put on weight but not quite as much as she should have.  It's easy to feel like a failure of a mother because of every little thing that goes wrong and I felt just that yesterday.  I'm seeing it a little differently today - I'd be a failure if I did nothing about it, shrugged it off and didn't try to find the reason and a way to fix it.

The house is a complete mess, seems like no matter what I do to tidy it it always ends up messy.  I'm downsizing everything we have to try to spread some clean air through the house.  I've never subscribed to the idea of Feng Shui, but I am a believer that if you're living in clutter and mess your mind will be cluttered and messy.  I remember when I was little and I'd be told that an untidy house made the house unhappy, and that was what caused nightmares.  I'm a notorious hoarder and I keep everything 'just in case'.  I think that maybe this might be the route of tiredness.  For one thing it's exhausting to keep clean, for another it's exhausting to look at.  I think that maybe if everywhere is tidy and neat, i.e. shelves and cupboards, we might be prompted to be a bit tidier... and make a bit of money on eBay :)

I'm feeling like someone stuffed cotton wool into my head through my ears and eyes.  That horrible wading-through-thick-tar feeling you get after neglecting a healthy diet for too long.  I've been eating crap.  McDonald's, Burger King, Chinese takeaway, microwave rice, instant noodles, no fruit, not enough water.  I should be better, I'm actually awaiting a scan appointment to investigate horrible pains I get every now and then - probably gallstones, which are usually treated by an operation and/or low fat healthy diet.

So yeah, I'm feeling a bit crappy today.  Hope to be able to post something upbeat and interesting next time :)